I just had a milestone birthday so I have been pretty reflective.
What does it mean to turn 50?
Turning 50 means that it’s official, at least half of my life is over. I have climbed up the mountain and now it’s time for the descent.
The hard work is over
It’s time to coast
Not really… not for me. Yet, a part of me believes this to be true, it’s a belief that I hold somewhere. I wrestle with it because I don’t actually agree with this. I don’t feel this in my bones.
What I feel in my bones is that it’s just beginning.
Today is the beginning.
I am about to climb the mountain…..it’s all in front of me.
50 things about me ...
Fave color is red
First time I kissed a girl was 8 years ago with Dragon
First time I kissed a boy I was 13 ish I think
I love to swim, I love water but don’t like being cold
One of my best friends died suddenly in an accident when we were 12
Gardening is the bomb - healing, fun, creative and restoring
I believe in God
When I was a child I wanted to be a writer when I grew up
I haven’t traveled on a plane in almost 10 years
I am divorced and leaving my ex husband is the best thing I ever did
When I was a teenager I believed I would have children (I was wrong)
I have never lived outside of Montreal
I was an early childhood educator in a number of settings for 20 + years
My fave show (right now) is The Handmaid’s Tale
Fave season is summer and I love the sounds of crickets and cicadas
I hate winter
I have always liked fitness and right now am enjoying weight training and yoga
I love jewellery - especially gold! But silver too! And fake stuff too.
High school was very problematic for me
I never had a pet growing up but Lord knows I wanted one!
I have had 7 animals in my adult life (3 cats and 4 dogs)
I moved out of my parents house when I was 20 and started having pets right away!
I have had the same best friend since early childhood
I love nature
I love my wife in a way that is deeper, better and richer than I have ever loved anyone
We have one dog now and she is almost 18 years old!
I love to wake up really early! Mornings are my time (spiritual, energized and productive)
I meditate and pray
I am a good listener and am really curious about people
I love to learn
I have trouble learning from video tutorials and manuals and prefer learning from people
My father died over 8 years ago
My eldest sister died 3 years ago
I fell in love with Dragon and “came out” not long after my father died. Apparently that’s a thing.
I was in therapy for a loooooonnnngggggg time!
I believe in the power of prayer, thought and a rich inner life
I miss living in a house and aspire to live in a house again someday. I enjoy domesticity.
I currently live in the same apartment I grew up in
I love singing and used to sing in a choir and a band
I love art, reading and music (ok that’s three things oops)
I have a strong work ethic
I can be lazy
I love to take baths (epsom salts and essential oils are life)
I prefer a hot bath / shower - like way too hot for Dragon
I have a history of co dependent, abusive relationships
I am no longer in an abusive, co dependent relationship
I love Matisse
I love fun things (clothes, music, people and animals)
My other sister cut me off suddenly and hasn’t spoken to me since 2011
I say a robust thank you to life / God every single day
So there you go!
Can you tell I don’t feel like it’s quite over yet? I’m still pretty hopped up on life and all it has to offer.
I am so ready for the next 50!